Thursday, November 26, 2009


So, yeah... I have not updated in a little while.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Breakfast: haggis and eggs
Lunch: Beer bread, onion bread, broccoli-rice casserole, spinach salad, cornbread dressing and grilled salmon, trout, crab.

Dinner: Seafood dip (mostly crab) with celery/crackers, cucumber sandwiches, bread pudding.

Tomorrow: Leftovers.  =^ᴗ^=

Monday, November 16, 2009

Cleaning A Room My Way

So, Claire was supposed to clean her room, and I wanted to hang out with her, so I was like, "Hey, I'll help."  "Sure," she said.
When the first thing I did was strip her bedding, and disassembled her bed while she put her bedding in the wash, she got the idea that I take cleaning seriously.  After we cleaned the area under her bed where her bed goes and cleaned all the bed parts, she decided that we may as well rearrange things. 
You know, it only takes a moment to takes the draws out of a dresser to give it a good cleaning.  We did the baseboards while everything was displaced.  We did the corners of the walls.  I got up on Claire's shoulders to reach up to the ceiling.  We took everything our of the closet and cleaned it from top to bottom too.  Her parents flipped out. 

But, you know, you dig things up, when you clean this way.  She had a shoebox with old notes from friends at school.  I made the mistake of reading one.
You know how it is when you only hear one side of a conversation... like, only hearing the response to a comment, not the comment itself?  But the reply is such that there is a lot that could be inferred about the nature of the initial comment.  Well, in brief, as luck would have it, I picked up one of the worst notes I possibly could have picked up.  This was kind soon after school started last year.  It was from a guy she knows... apparently continuing some kind of debate about yours truly.
    "No, /I/ don't think she's hot because she puts out.  I think her "friends" do. Who knows what all's been up in that?  I think she /could/ be hot if she didn't look like a 4th grader... and hadn't 'been there,' you know."
    It hurt.  I know they didn't know me (obviously, they didn't know me, because anyone who does, knows I don't/didn't/haven't), but it still hurt... a lot.  I knew there were all sorts of nasty rumours running around about me, but...  Now, these people are (kinda) my friends.  They _do_ know me know and don't think that way about me ... any more.  But it hurt.  It was -- sobering(?) -- though, to see the pain that Claire felt for me seeing that.  Mercy that was awkward.  There was a lot of crying involved all round.  I tried to lighten the mood by joking, "So, he thinks I'll be hot when I grow up."
    She said that he got over the 4th grader-looking-like issue.  I said I didn't wanna know more.
    She hugged me.  I hugged her back.  That surprised us both.  I don't complain any more when she hugs me, but... well... I have 'touching' issues, you know.  Nothing like a little shared pain to bring people closer, eh?
    We got back to work, but didn't really talk for a while.  We both needed a little time, but it was nice to know she was there.

    All things considered, it could have gone much, much worse.

Take Care -

Sunday, November 15, 2009

The Trust Game

My friend Claire introduced me to... the trust game... as she calls it.
She said she had this idea while we were in her room reading. The idea is this:
We are sitting on the floor, facing each other. She told me to close my eyes. Then, she puts her hands on the sides of my face.
Major personal space alarms going off.
Then she brushes her thumbs over my eye lids. Then she presses her thumbs a little more firmly onto my eyes.

Then she sat back and said that it was my turn and closed her eyes.

This was really weird. I asked what I was supposed to do. She said "whatever." So, I started to do the same thing with the eyes that she did to me. I, apparently, do not trust myself as much as I trust Claire.

It is ten 'til 5 in the morning. We were up 'til 2. I spent the night with Claire. I have been up for over an hour, mostly just watching her sleep, wondering which of us misunderstands me the most.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Another question thingie (Ooh! What will it reveal about me?!)

There was sarcasm in that title - hidden... somewhere... see if you can find it.

[x] You don't have very many friends.
[ ] Often times, teachers forget your name.
[x] You were always picked last for kickball.
[x] You don't like to talk a lot.
[x] You tend to avoid mass social activities.
[x] You don't participate in any extracurricular activities.
[x] All you wish for is to move away or get a fresh start.  (kinda done that)
[x] Your friends have blown you off before.
[x] You sit alone in most of your classes. (especially now that I am home schooled)
[x] You have a feeling that once you leave high school or college, nobody is going to remember you.  (or HOPE not)
[x] You hold interest in activities that other people find strange.
[x] People don't find you friendly.
[ ] You hold extreme hate towards another high school stereotype.
[x] You eat alone at lunch.  (again - especially now that I am home schooled)
Total = 12

Party Girl/Boy
[ ] Lets face it: you like to party.
[ ] You party every other weekend.
[ ] ...Or every weekend?
[ ] You've been going to frat house parties since early high school.
[ ] You're the defending beer bong champion.
[ ] You know the best hook-ups in the state... world.
[ ] Everybody who's anybody goes to the same parties you go to.
[ ] You've hooked up at parties.
[x] You spend time getting ready for parties.  :le pout:
[ ] You've passed out from being too drunk.
[ ] You've partied all night.
[ ] You've snuck out of the house to party.
[ ] Actually, your parents really don't care if you party or not.
[ ] You're pretty much nocturnal.
[ ] You like to go clubbing.
[ ] You and your friends always party hop.
[ ] You've crashed a party before.
[ ] One way or another, you've wound up naked in front of everybody at a party.  (Mercy, I hope not)
[ ] You've thrown up from drinking too much.
[ ] You've done something that you regret at a party.
[ ] You can dance.
[x] You're friends with a lot of people older than you.  (By % of friends, not count)

Total = 2

Scene Kid
[ ] You know what sXe and hXc actually mean.  :le what?:
[ ] You have a obsession with dinosaurs, robots, and Pokemon.
[ ] You idolize Jeffree Starr
[ ] People have called you scene before.
[ ] You spend at least an hour getting ready to take pictures of yourself for your myspace.
[ ] You have a mirror pic.
[ ] You listen to bands that most people have never heard of.
[ ] You enjoy going to shows.
[ ] You only go to shows for the sake of going to shows, not the music.
[ ] Your hair is multicolored.   (not at the moment)
[ ] You accessorize your hair with kiddie barrettes and bows.
[ ] Fashion is one of the most important things that define you.
[ ] You mosh.
[x] You often mix vintage with modern.
[ ] Your myspace picture captions are sad lyrics to sad songs.
[ ] All of your friends are scene.
[ ] You don't know many of the people on your friends list in person.
[ ] You take angled pictures of yourself.
[x] You enjoy photography.
Total = 2

[ ] You pop the collar.
[ ] You won't go near the "goths".
[x] You own at least one thing from a designer store.   (But it is not my fault)
[x] You are very clean cut. (? Yeah, most are very clean)
[x] You are squeamish.
[ ] People have called you preppy before.
[ ] You never leave the house without putting on cologne/perfume.
[ ] You have a lot of money.
[ ] You know who LC is.
[ ] You watch shows like The OC, The Real World, The Hills, and Laguna Beach.
[ ] One favorite stores are Abercrombie & Fitch or American Eagle Outfitters.
[ ] You're afraid to set foot into Hot Topic.
[ ] (Girls) You carry a purse wherever you go.
[ ] You need to wake up at least an hour before school so you can get ready.
[ ] (Girls) You do not leave the house without make up.
[ ] You are content overall with how your life is going.
Total = 3

Band Geek
[ ] You have played an instrument before.
[ ] You still play an instrument.
[ ] You are/were in regular Band.
[ ] You are/were in Jazz Band.
[ ] You are/were in Marching Band.
[ ] You've never dated anybody outside of Band.
[ ] Most of your friends are in band.
[ ] The band room/band hall is your second home.
[x] You enjoy listening to Classical music on occasion.
[ ] You aspire to be a Drum Major.
[ ] You've made out with somebody on a Band bus or at a Band competition.
[ ] You have trouble getting your non-band friends to go near the band room.
[ ] Band is your favorite class.
[ ] You have been to band camp.
[ ] You walk in step with all your friends.
[ ] You talk about band constantly.
[ ] You know that American Pie has got it all wrong.
[ ] You hate rap music.
[ ] Marching Season is your favorite time of year.
[ ] When you go to football games, you don't really pay attention to the game itself.
[ ] Your favorite jokes are band jokes.
[ ] You know it's not about the bloods and the crips: it's the brass and the woodwinds.
Total = 1

[ ] You have seen in a school play.
[ ] You have seen a Broadway musical
[ ] You like to act.
[ ] You have participated in a school play.
[ ] You have participated in a play outside of school.
[ ] You have gone to the Thespian Conference.
[x] You get ticked off when people make that thespian, "Did you say lesbian?" joke. 
[ ] You have done tech.
[x] You know that you cannot touch anybody else's props.  (on many levels that have nothing to do with theatre.)
[ ] You have played in the pit orchestra for a musical.
[ ] You have been to a cast party.
[ ] You are in a thespian troupe.
[ ] You often sing show tunes at the top of your lungs.
[ ] You know who Idina Menzel and Johnathan Larson are.
[ ] At one point in your life, you were obsessed with RENT.
[ ] You do not have a personal bubble.
[ ] You actually understand Shakespeare.
[ ] You know how to put on stage make up.
[ ] You have been a lead.
[ ] You met a lot of your better friends through theatre.
Total = 2

[ ] You participate in a lot of extracurricular activities.
[ ] You have a part-time job.
[ ] You have straight As.
[ ] You are in mostly honors/IB/AP classes.
[ ] You do not procrastinate.
[ ] You have scored a 5 on an AP test.
[x] You do not have very much down time.
[ ] You are very organized. (I try. I wish.)
[ ] You always have a thousand things going on at once.
[ ] You are in a relationship.
[ ] You aspire to get into an Ivy League School.
[ ] In your extracurriculars, you hold leadership positions.
[ ] You are/were on Student Council.
[ ] You are/were the class president.
[ ] You are/were a class officer.
[ ] You are/were the Salutatorian for your class.
[ ] You are/were the Valedictorian for your class.
[ ] People have told you that you didn't have a life.
[ ] You are getting/have already received the IB Diploma.
[ ] You cry hysterically when you get anything lower than an A on anything.
Total = 1

[ ] Your grades are slipping.
[ ] You always wait until the last minute to do big projects.
[ ] You are an overall procrastinator.
[ ] You tend to do your homework when you're watching TV.
[ ] It takes you ages to turn your job applications in.
[ ] You are often late to school/work.
[ ] You don't turn in a lot of your work.
[ ] You spend the majority of your time watching TV, the computer or going on Myspace when you could be doing something more productive.
[ ] You sleep in past noon on the weekends and during the summer.
[ ] You do not get out of your pajamas unless you have to leave the house.
[ ] You could walk, but you'll just drive.
[x] You have fallen asleep during class before.
[ ] Friends have called you lazy.
[ ] Life is hard when you lose the remote & you have to walk a million miles over to the TV and change the channel.
[ ] When you hang out with your friends, the majority of your time is spent playing video games or doing something where neither of you have to stand up.
[x] You have eaten an entire pint of ice cream in one sitting.
[ ] You have sat through an entire running marathon of a show before.
Total = 2

[ ] Your wardrobe consists of mostly black things.  (meh)
[ ] When you have the money, you shop at Hot Topic.
[ ] You think tattoos are hot.
[ ] You think odd piercings are hot.
[ ] You don't get along with your parents.
[x] You have/want to dyed/dye your hair an exotic color.
[ ] You've styled your hair in liberty spikes.
[x] Sometimes you ponder the meaning of life and death.
[ ] You like to write dark poetry.
[ ] You are into S&M.
[x] You have a pair of over sized black pants. (snow pants.  they go on over everything.)
[x] At one point in your life, you liked Foamy, Happy Bunny, Emily the Strange, and the Happy Tree Friends.
[ ] You listen to grunge.
[x] You have a messenger bag with buttons up and down the straps.  (Well, more of a backpack)
[ ] You smoke cigarettes.
[ ] You will only date other Goths.
[x] You don't really care what people think about you.
[x] Overly happy people scare you.
[ ] You like black makeup & nail polish best.  (meh)
Total = 7

[x] You actually study for tests and quizzes.
[ ] You have straight As.
[ ] You haven't had any luck with the opposite sex.  (Oh, I had luck... BAD luck.)
[ ] You are into WoW, Magic Cards, and Halo.
[x] You over analyze jokes to the point where they aren't funny anymore.
[x] Your mom buys your clothes for you.
[ ] You actually answer the questions in class.
[ ] You sit front row center in all of your classes to get the best learning experience.
[ ] You miss school during the summer.
[ ] You wear your pants at your waist.  (okay, I am not marking X here because I know what is really being asked.)
[ ] You prefer sweatpants to jeans.
[ ] You have a pocket protector in your shirt with pens and a calculator in it.
[ ] You let cute boys/girls take advantage of you & copy your homework in hopes of getting noticed.
[x] You've noticed some of the spelling and grammar mistakes in this survey.  (Hahaha....)
[ ] People always cheat off you during tests.
[ ] Your parents pack your lunch for you every day.
[ ] You wear/should be wearing glasses.
Total = 4

Garage Band Junkie
[ ] You play the guitar
[ ] You have been in a garage band before.
[ ] You're still in a garage band.
[ ] You think your band is going to make it big someday.
[ ] You play shows almost weekly.
[ ] You play the drum set.
[ ] You sing vocals for a band.
[ ] You write your own lyrics.
[ ] You spend hundreds on amps and microphones.
[ ] Your band has a myspace page.
[ ] You have been in multiple garage bands.
[ ] You have changed the name of your band at least twice.
[ ] You have participated in a battle of the bands.
[ ] Your band has been signed.
[ ] You have taken guitar classes at school.
[ ] You have played at the same venue multiple times.
[ ] You would rather make it big than have to go to college.
[ ] You have musical talent.
[ ] You have groupies.
[ ] You've made t-shirts and other apparel for your band.
Total = 0

[ ] You actually are black.
[ ] You know who the bloods and the crips are.
[ ] You wear doo-rags.
[ ] You actually grew up in the ghetto.
[ ] You can freestyle.
[ ] You drive down the street blaring your music.
[ ] Your ride is pimped out with stereo boosts.
[ ] You can break dance.
[ ] You say "nigga" a lot.
[ ] You talk too fast for people to understand you.
[ ] You are pretty chill with life.
[ ] You wear your jeans oversized and below your butt.
[x] Old school rap is the best.  (... of the rap.  I like me some RUN DMC.)
[ ] You know that Tupac will never die.
[ ] You wear bling.
[ ] You have/want a custom grill.
[ ] You have custom rims on your tires.
[ ] You are actually in a gang.
[ ] You are always big pimpin'.
Total = 1

[x] You often have trouble convincing people that you aren't emo.
[ ] You comb your hair over one of your eyes.  (never that long)
[ ] You flip your hair often.  ^poke above
[ ] You have dark-rimmed glasses.
[x] You have hurt your self on purpose.  (Oh, mercy... I should have known this would be on here.)
[ ] If you're a boy, people often complain about your pants being too tight.
[x] You don't really smile too often.
[ ] You blog often.
[x] You never smile in pictures.
[ ] You listen to Thursday and/or Sunny Day Real Estate.
[x] You're too much of a pussy to be a goth.
[ ] You own a lot of band t-shirts.
[x] You go to a lot of shows.
[ ] You only go for emo/scene boys and girls.
[ ] It doesn't take very much to make you cry.
[ ] You have played all the Emo Games.  (Are these like Reindeer Games?)
[x] You have worn black eyeliner before.
[ ] You own a bandana which you wear in your hair.
[x] You have dark hair.
[ ] You love the emo song.  (What's the emo song?)
[ ] You say stuff like "I feel like my heart's being ripped out" and all.  (Ouch. no.)
Total = 8  (8?!!?)

[ ] You own/ed a skateboard.
[ ] You have been skateboarding since you were in grade school.
[ ] You have gotten many injuries from skateboarding.
[x] You know that World Industries and Element aren't just clothing lines.
[ ] You have vandalized public property.
[ ] You have TPed/egged somebody's house before.
[x] You have been yelled at for loitering.
[x] You have gotten in trouble with the cops.
[x] You listen to punk rock.
[ ] Chicks on skateboards are hot.  (This is to see if I am skatepunk, or lesbian?)
[ ] You stick it to the man.
[x] You own skater shoes.
[ ] You watch MTV2, not MTV.
[ ] You enjoy crude humor.
[ ] Screw school, lets do crazy stuff.
[x] You know that there are other pro skaters out there besides Tony Hawk.
[ ] You pretty much live at the skate park.
[ ] Hygiene does not concern you.   (Oh, mercy!  I gotta wash my eyes for reading that!)
[ ] Skater boys are attractive.
Total = 6

[x] Most people are scared of your music.  (Some of it, yeah.  Mercy, even I am.  (wait, that does not make sense.))
[x] A lot of the bands you like have violent names/titles/lyrics.
[x] You hate emo kids.
[x] You have gotten kicked out of a public place multiple times before.
[x] Slipknot isn't really metal.
[x] You appreciate really good guitarists of any genre, particularly flamenco.
[ ] You hate pop and rap.
[ ] You spend all your money on music-related stuff.
[ ] Scene kids are fun to laugh at.  (I almost checked this one, but I don't laugh, so.... no.)
[ ] You will become friends with anyone if they like the same bands.
[ ] You curse a lot.  (Define a lot?  Define curse?)
[x] You can name at least five sub genres of metal.  (oops.  I didn't think I could.)
[x] You wore black converses before they became emo.
[x] At least one of your favorite bands thinks they're Vikings.  (They are from Norway?)
[x] You also like classic rock, such as Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd.
[ ] You have yelled at someone for their taste in music.
Total = 10  (That was unexpected.)

Outcast-             12
Party Girl/Boy-  2
Scene Kid-         2
Prep-                 3
Band Geek-       1
Thespian-          2
Overachiever-   1
Slacker-            2
Goth-                 7
Nerd-                 4
Garage Band Junkie-  0
Gangsta-           1
Emo-                 8  (Oh, the shame!)
Skatepunk-       6
Metalhead-       10

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Top Fifteen Motivational Quotes

Top Fifteen Motivational Quotes (Yeah, motivational)(in no particular order that I will admit to):
01) "Pressure is nothing more than the shadow of great opportunity."
- Michael Johnson
02) "Most people run a race to see who is fastest. I run a race to see who has the most guts."
- Steve Prefontaine
03) "What matters is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight - it's the size of the fight in the dog."
- Dwight D. Eisenhower
04) "Your imagination, my dear fellow, is worth more than you imagine."
- Louis Aragon
05) "You will never leave where you are, until you decide where you'd rather be."
- Dexter Yager
06) "You never will be the person you can be if pressure, tension and discipline are taken out of your life."
- Dr. James G. Bilkey
07) "The will to win is important, but the will to prepare is vital."
- Joe Paterno
08) "The years teach much which the days never knew."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
09) "Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go."
- T. S. Eliot
10) "Better than a thousand days of diligent study is one day with a great teacher."
- Japanese Proverb
11) "Begin challenging your own assumptions. Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in awhile, or the light won't come in."
- Alan Alda
12) "There is no pillow so soft as a clear conscience."
- French Proverb
13) "The only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary."
- Vidal Sassoon (yeah, the "if you don't look good, we don't look good" guy)
14) "Most people spend more time and energy going around problems than in trying to solve them."
- Henry Ford
15) "It hurts up to a point and then it doesn't get any worse."
- Ann Trason

Friday, November 6, 2009

Top Fifteen Hermione Granger Quotes

Top Fifteen Hermione Granger Quotes (in no particular order that I will admit to)
01) Is that really what my hair looks like from the back?
02) [laughing, mocking Professor Trelawney] Broaden your minds! Use your inner eye to see the future!
03) Yes, you must! Harry, you're in Hagrid's hut now. If you just go bursting in you'll think you've gone mad! Awful things happen to wizards who've meddled with time. We can't be seen.
04) The *point* is, we know the truth. Please believe us.
05) With a patronus? I heard Snape telling Dumbledore. According to him, only a really powerful wizard could've conjured it.
06) This is a time turner, Harry. McGonagall gave it to me first term. This is how I've been getting to my lessons all year.
07) He really is out there, isn't he? We've got to be able to defend ourselves. And if Umbridge refuses to teach us how, we need someone who will. (I think that one line replaced like two chapters in the book)
08) Who cares? I mean, it's sort of exciting, isn't it, breaking the rules.
09) That foul, evil old gargoyle! We're not learn how to defend ourselves, we're not learning how to pass our O.W.L.s. She's taking over the entire school!
10) Just because you've got the emotional range of a teaspoon.
11) Stop, stop stop! You're going to take someone's eye out. Besides, you're saying it wrong. It's Levi-OH-sa, not Levio-SA.
12) You've got dirt on your nose. Did you know? Just there.
13) Are you sure that's a real spell? Well, it's not very good, is it?
14) Next time there's a ball pluck up the courage to ask me before someone else does! And not as a last resort!
15) Now if you two don't mind, I'm going to bed before either of you can come up with another clever idea to get us all killed - or worse, expelled.

There are more, but some of her best lines are in the last couple books.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Top Fifteen Comical or Amusing Quotes

Top Fifteen Comical or Amusing Quotes (in no particular order that I will admit to):
01) "From the moment I picked your book up until I laid it down, I convulsed with laughter. Someday I intend on reading it." - Groucho Marx
02) "Sometimes I am two people. Johnny is the nice one. Cash causes all the trouble. They fight" - Johnny Cash
03) "I like a man who grins when he fights." - Winston Churchill
04) "The Linux philosophy is 'Laugh in the face of danger'. Oops. Wrong One. 'Do it yourself'. Yes, that's it." - Linus Torvalds
05) "Your theory is crazy, but it's not crazy enough to be true." - Niels Bohr
06) "We can lick gravity, but sometimes the paperwork is overwhelming." - Wernher von Braun
07) "Computer science is no more about computers than astronomy is about telescopes." - Edsger Dijkstra
08) "Drawing on my fine command of the English language, I said nothing." - Robert Benchley
09) Life is a sexually transmitted disease with 100% mortality. - fortune
10) "When you are courting a nice girl an hour seems like a second. When you sit on a red-hot cinder a second seems like an hour. That's relativity." - Albert Einstein
11) "Life is hard. After all, it kills you." - Katharine Hepburn
12) "I was the kid next door's imaginary friend." - Emo Philips
13) "I worry that the person who thought up Muzak may be thinking up something else." - Lily Tomlin
14) "If you hold a cat by the tail you learn things you cannot learn any other way." - Mark Twain
15) "Either he's dead or my watch has stopped." - Groucho Marx

Ok... I know a couple of these are from movies, but come on... they are good.

Visit with Mum (Part 1?)

For the past few days, I have been at Mum's.  The gist of it is:
1) This past summer was the first that I did not stay with her since the split up.
2) About 4 times a year I have to come here for the medical resources.  I am beginning to think that I can get the same care more local, but I am not going to get into that.
3) Travel will be soon a bit sketchier, so visiting while I can.

Monday was kinda like Drs of one kind or another all day.  (How hard can it be to draw blood from someone you can practically see through?  I don't need an x-ray, just hold me up in front of a candle.)
Yesterday we shopped.  I am not big on shopping, but it was okay.

Last night, over Chinese take-out, we had an interesting conversation.
We had /the/ sex talk a long time ago, but it had been years since we just talked about sex and relationships.  It just had not really been relevant, you know?  By the time it became (parts of it) relevant I was with Dad - and Dad & my relationship is more conducive to that kind of conversation. -- and in that parental communicative way, they shared notes.
So Mum was all like:
Is there a guy you like?
Surely someone you fancy...
...think is hot stuff?
Not even a little crush?
A girl?
Not even a little crush?
Okay, yeah, Mum, maybe.
Really? A girl? Do I know her?
Yeah, you do. - I said with a grin so she would not take it harshly - You slept with her.
She blushed.   (I think I (euphemistically) used the word "slept" - which is ironic because I slept with her too, but literally.  Long story.) It was true. I have a crush, if you will, a non-sexual girl-crush on my Mum's first girlfriend.
Then I was like:
You know how I feel about Amy (<-- not her real name, by the way).  I love her very much, but I'm not having "romantic" feelings towards her or anyone.
No one?
No one.
What about Clair?  (<-- not her real name, by the way)
We're just friends Mum.  And she likes boys.
Does she have a boyfriend?
You know, I married your father, and I still love him very much, but...
Not every girl in the world is secretly gay.  And just because I am scared of boys, doesn't mean I'm a lesbian too.  (Oh, Mum's lesbian.  I went on.)  Which would be okay if I was, but I am just nothing, okay?
But who do you find attractive?
(mental uhg.  I rolled my eyes and through my fortune cookie at her.)
Then we named celebrities that we thought were good looking.
Dad and I would sit sometimes watching people walk by and point out who we thought was good looking and I would punch him whenever he looked at a girl that was too young for him.  Same sort of thing.  But without the punching.

I can appreciate a good looking person, boy or girl, but once I start to think about a guy being a guy.... and the anatomical ramifications of that... I freak out.  There are people, guys, I have a very hard time being in the same room with because of this phenomenon.  Sometimes I even get that way with Dad.  Usually I just go to my room, other times I can't move and he has to leave the room.  That reminds me of another story, that is still to new to not be funny yet.  But I digress.

So, convinced that I had an eye for pretty people, but no juicy stories to tell Mum, we started talking about her relationships.  She has had a hard time of things.  She never really came out, you know?  Not publicly.  So I got to hear about her triumphs and frustrations.  She expressed that she felt a little like a bad parent for having this kind of talk with me.  She decided that it does not bother her that she will have no grandkids.
Oh - in case you did not know, I will not be reproducing.  Aint gonna happen.

We did talk a little about the lack of physiological progress I am making and how I do not care to get medical treatment for it.  I don't feel like I am missing out on anything by not having started puberty.  We had been through all this before and I have enough to worry about.  So, Mum was like, it is no wonder you have no interest in sex.

Well, that is a big part of it.  I can't talk about my inner fears with her, or anyone.  Not really.  I can say that I _have_ them, but not what they are.  It is not my intention to withhold this from her, from my shrink, even from Dad and my friends.  There is just something in there... that rotten place I call my mind... that shuts me down.  I tried, you know?  I really tried to share with her, but I locked up.  She called Dad and let me sleep it off.  When I woke up we had ice cream.

I could go on, but Mum is up and making breakfast.  I should go make sure she does not do anything weird with it.

This is all TMI as is, but I am going to post it right quick and edit it later.  It is not like anyone reads it anyway.

Take Care

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Shopping Day

I am not big on shopping.  I am missing that bone in my head that all girls have that makes me want to shop.  I am such a guy that way.

So, while I am out...
Top Fifteen Quotes (in no particular order that I will admit to):
01) "I find television very educational. Every time someone switches it on I go into another room and read a good book." - Groucho Marx
02) "Eating words has never given me indigestion." - Winston Churchill
03) "I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat." - Winston Churchill
04) "Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing had happened." - Winston Churchill
05) "Don't join the book burners. Do not think you are going to conceal thoughts by concealing evidence that they ever existed." - Dwight Eisenhower
06) "Why do you think the old stories tell of men who set out on great journeys to impress the gods? Because trying to impress people just isn't worth the time and effort." - Henry Rollins
07) "Scar tissue is stronger than regular tissue. Realize the strength, move on." - Henry Rollins
08) "Keep your blood clean, your body lean, and your mind sharp." - Henry Rollins
09) "What you do speaks so loud I cannot hear what you say." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
10) "I've never been competitive with anybody but myself." - Ice T
11) "Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so." - Douglas Adams
12) "I do not feel obliged to believe that the same G__ who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use." - Galileo Galilei
13) "My mother said to me, "If you are a soldier, you will become a general. If you are a monk, you will become the Pope." Instead, I was a painter, and became Picasso." - Pablo Picasso
14) "Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone." - Pablo Picasso
15) "Honesty is very sexy." - Valerie Bertinelli

Take Care

Monday, November 2, 2009

Halloween Candy is Not the Same

My favourite "standard" Halloween candy had been 3 Musketeers.  (Ever notice how the Musketeers are know for their swordsmanship?)
But, for the last 6 years or so, chocolate has been on my "cannot eat" list.

Coffee is too (well, on my do not _drink_ list) but I cheat sometimes.  (Okay, coco too, but no where near as much nor as recent.)

So, I was at this Halloween party Sat night.  And there was my tempter... a bucket o' 3Musketeers.

And there I was, sitting next to someone eating a 3M.

And, little rebel that I am, I was looking at it with all the fond memories of childhood full of 3M eating, loads of those little ones, every Halloween.

And I got one.  I took a bite.

It did not taste good at all.  Then I tried to think of how long it had been since I had chocolate.  I could not even finish it.

It was some time later and my tummy revolted, and it made for an unpleasant day of travel yesterday.

I can't believe how dense I can be sometimes.

Anywho, yeah, I am feeling better.
Take Care